Divorce In The Making; Love Life In Question?

So I'm in the middle of messy divorce. Hopefully it won't be much longer. I have a male friend who's been my friend for some years now and nothing more. We've sporadically skirted around why we never were involved in a relationship and it was typically because one of us were normally in a relationship. In fact, women are always after him. However, now that my divorce is almost over, I FINALLY invited him over to my house. I've never kissed him or anything, everything was for the most part platonic. However, we made pionate love together. He claims that he loves me. I don't want a relationship from him at all. It's too soon. It's just that my soon to be ex-husband was never a good lovemaker and not to mention we're getting a divorce because of physical and emotional abuse. We hardly ever had . It felt great to be made love to again over and over. However, I'm confused as to why I feel so vulnerable and 'needy.' My friend claims that he isn't playing games and that he wants us to be together, but...I just feel so confused. I guess what I want from him is to be able to rely on him as I always have been in the past but without getting my feelings hurt and not jumping the gun. Am I wrong? Am I expecting too much? I think about him all of the time now.